The star of the colts, Braden Smith, opened his fatal battle with an obsessive compulsive disorder (OCD) which left him near “put a ball in his brain”.
The NFL player’s wife was forced to change the combination of the safe where they kept their firearms while the mental bustle of Smith has become out of control.
The offensive tackle had not spoken of the state which forced him to miss the last five games of the 2024 season.
“I was physically present, but I should not be found,” Smith told the Indianapolis star.
“I didn’t care to play football. I did not care to spend time with my family, with my wife, with my newborn son … I had (I felt like) one month to put a ball in my brain.
The 29 -year -old man faced what was described as a “war of obsession” for his soul while he was fighting against religious scanity, a form of (OC) concerning religious obsessions.
Braden Smith opened his fatal battle with an obsessive compulsive disorder
His wife (left) was forced to change the combination of the safe where they kept their weapons
“ I felt like a month to put a ball in my brain ” said the 29 -year -old
According to the International TOC Foundation, “scrupulous individuals are too concerned about the fact that something they thought or did could be a sin or another violation of religious or moral doctrine.
“They can worry about what their thoughts or their behavior mean who they are as a person.”
Smith tried a psychologist and antidepressants and spent 48 days in a mental health establishment, where he met other football players.
But he only started to stop the downward spiral after going to Mexico for a five-day treatment using an illegal “psychoactive” substance in the United States.
For a while, however, sleep would have been the only escape for Smith. Last November, he went to the settler facilities before going home almost immediately for a nap.
His wife Courtney found her awake but, she said to the star: “He was not there … There was no return”.
Smith’s problems date back to March 2024, when his Christian faith began to become something more dangerous.
According to the star, he was constantly praying, listening only to Christian music, “devouring” the Bible and citing the scriptures. Soon he was fighting against serious guilt, perfectionism and feelings of imminent unhappiness.
“There was only one person who was perfect, and it was Jesus,” said Smith. “When you try to respect this standard, live this, it will drive you crazy.”
Smith’s wife, Courtney, noticed the offensive tackle making “compulsions” on the ground
Smith has undergone treatment using ibogaine, a psychoactive drug derived from a shrub from Africa
The couple was baptized in the hope that he could come out Smith from their problems. Instead, they made snowball.
Courtney noticed that Smith made “compulsions” on the ground and, sometimes, she would not leave him alone with their baby.
The 29 -year -old man made “compulsions” in his head until five hours a day and he told his wife that he was going to retire.
But then, in January, Smith went to Mexico as a “last effort”. He spent time in a “Lodge sweatshirt” and has followed a treatment using ibogaine, a psychoactive drug based on plants derived from a shrub from Central Africa, and another psychedelic produced in the venom of certain toads.
“(He) resets your brain,” said Smith. “It seemed that I was exorcised by demons.”
His condition has improved, but he still has treatment with OC therapy.
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