The Boston Red Sox voltiseur, Jarren Duran, said his misfortunes on the ground during the 2021 and 2022 seasons had fueled his mental health difficulties to the point that he tried to commit suicide.
Duran, interviewed for the Docuseries “The Clubhouse: A Year With The Red Sox”, which will be presented on Tuesday on Netflix, said that he did not meet his own expectations – as well as other disappointing – pushed him in a very dark place.
“I already heard fans,” said Duran in the docuseries. “And what they said to me: (it was like):” I said to myself 10 times worse in the mirror. “It was a really difficult time for me.
“… I got to a point where I was sitting in my room, I had my rifle and I had a bullet and I pressed the relaxation and the weapon clicked, but nothing happened. So, to this day, I think that God did not let me take my life because I do not know why I do not know when I started when I started to have started in the mirror after the fact that I don’t want to be here. Reason and you are obviously here for a reason, so let’s be as you want to be and play (the way) that you want to play and live as you want to live.
Duran, 28, entered the majors with the Red Sox as a recruit in 2021, reaching .215 with 10 points produced in 33 games. The following season was only slightly better, with him reaching .221 with 17 points produced in 58 games.
His career, however, began his upward trajectory in 2023 after being recalled from Triple-A at the start of the season. He struck. 295 with 40 points produced in 102 games, steering wheel 24 bases and scoring 46 points. He became a first All-Star in 2024 and was MVP of this match, and he established heights in career this season in Home Runs (21), races (111), produced points (75) and stolen bases (34).
Duran, who finished eighth in MVP voting, avoided arbitration of this off -season, reaching a one year contract for $ 3.85 million which includes a team option for 2026.
“Jarren’s decision to share his story is an act of courage that goes far beyond baseball,” said the president and chief executive officer Sam Kennedy. “By opening, he shows others who may have trouble not being alone and that asking for help is not just ok, it’s essential.
“Each member of this organization continues to stand with him. He has our deepest admiration, he has always had our total support and we are incredibly lucky to have it in the context of our team.”
Duran was suspended two games last season for having pronounced an anti-gay insult in a fan. He apologized, telling fans that he was “sorry for my actions” and that “I will work to be better for them”.
In docusery, Duran said he was holding a daily newspaper and remembers small reminders to help him focus on his mental health.
“On (the strip on) my left wrist, I write:” (F —) “Em”, because it is me by saying to my demons: “You are not going to unfold me” “, declared Duran in the Docuuteries.” And on my right wrist, I write, “always alive” because I am still there and that I always fight. “
